Decisions Decisions Decisions...

Every part of our lives is shaped by our decisions. Everything from the small decisions that come from instant reactions, to the big ones we take time to formulate and execute. Lately I have been feeling caught in a mental dilemma. While I know how important every decision is to the Blockbuster called our lives sometimes I feel the movie would be more interesting if I didn't think about everything that I did. The movie would have more twists & turns, love, hate, anger, sadness...(wow when rereading this I just realized almost all of the emotions I just listed were negative..interesting.. amazing what you can learn about how you view things without even knowing it.. anyways!) Not thinking may have its advantages of having a more roller coaster plot line, but there are so many more extreme emotions along the way, the ups and downs are exhausting. I understand why people like to live this type of existence, having experienced one similar situation recently. Having a moment where you aren't sure how the scene will end gets the blood pumping and can give you the chance to see and feel more raw emotion in each of the characters.

The problem is, once you know and see how it works in action, it's hard to turn off. Now that I think about it, I don't think I would be able to turn it off. How am I certain how the movie will end if I don't write the screenplay? Of course the ideal equation is most likely a mix of the two extremes, making a more balanced life. Plan the big stuff and turn off your mind on the small.. the problem is I don't know what falls into what category, I feel every decision is big because every small decision sets bigger decisions into motion.. crap I'm right back where I started..